-MISSINGpiecesOFme

2006-04-03T00:18:00.000+08:00

ohWOW.
long time since i blogged.
i wont have the time to soon also.
anyways.
this blog is officially DOWN.
you pple can still tag. yupps.
i'll check back to reply tags,
more often than i'll blog.
yupps.

busy with studies.
recent events:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO.
hahahas. yupps.

choir is fine.
fcube also quite okay.
we've been taking turns to absent ourselves,
havent we huh, numberONE?
lolx. yeahs.

thats about it i guess.
TAKE CARE PEEPS.

2006-03-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

OHHH. THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL.

changi boardwalk.
a damn boring place.
happy birthday xavier.
hope you had fun scaring ppl.
with that lame bag. LOL
the trip back i dozed off. haha.
yeahs. back in school,
we did a LAME reflection.
i dont feel reflected. lols.
we had to write a postcard.
draw two landmarks.
and write a poem.

went of for lunch after that.
ate at pizza hut. whee-
then yeah off to JOGATHON.

oh.... what a wonderful place.
heh. it was okay i guess.
just that i dint run yeah.
but i had blisters. FOUR.
lolx. that damned shoe.
then dad came to pick me back.
ohyes. congrats to:
shiggy for getting 8th.
zoee for getting 10th.
vanessa for getting 19th.
whee- u guys rawk.

yeahs. has been a long day.
but never minds.
take a good rest and off i go tmr.
take care peeps.

itAINTtheFIRSTtime.
CONGRATS! (:

2006-03-09T22:23:00.000+08:00

BACK TO UPDATE. sry for the delay.
havent really been blogging.
been rather busy. and rather sickly i guess.
ohwells.

END OF ANOTHER WEEK.
THE BEGINING OF " HOLIDAYS "
yupps. dunno what to say.
i'm gonna change the link asap.

check back for updates ba. (:
outta here-

2006-03-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

oh YAY. another week has passed.
this week seems short.
i havent been to school AGAIN.
ohwells. no one's missing me at school eh?
heh.

today is mom's birthday.
had dinner out. yupps.
the stench of salted fish is still in the air.
and it stinks.

i've got some hopes. yeah.
- joyce gets her appeal.
- yihui's bro get well.
- be less lazy
- be less ILL.
- more studious.
heh. yupps.

outta here.
watching KUNFU HUSTLE.
lolx. whats with that lollipop.

takecaire.

2006-02-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

back to update.
the parliment trip wasnt that bad.
it was miss kang's birthday.
so she treat us to mac.
and then we sang her birthday song.
so we got her a wallet.
and a gigantic card. hope she lyked it.

i havent been to school today.
down with fever. shoulder sprained.
woah. and guess what i ate today.
i'm so apologetic to those we were late.
i dint mean not to attend school.
too many coincidences.
i'm starting to feel jinxed. lol
ohwells.

its a good day.
its also a bad day.

i'm just tired.
yawns.

2006-02-22T16:38:00.000+08:00

bad day for me i guess.
all about expectations.
all about the trust u have in me.
scoldings and stuffs. yupp.

dint go anywhere today.
walked back alone. i love the rain.

unawared of what i was doing,
i kinda retrospected.
thought of kcp. psle & stuffs.
then church stuffs.
the stream of thoughts came to a standstill.
the impediment was one person.
yeahs. just one.
i'm happy to have her once ago.
though she's no more beside me.
i'll do whatever it takes to visit u on o2o5.
i miss u loads though.
but after everything, i know..
and i'm sure. you're watching over me.

SOMEONES WATCHING OVER ME.

found myself today
oh i found myself and ran away
something pulled me back
the voice of reason i forgot i had
all i know is just you're not here to say
what you always used to say
but it's written in the sky tonight

so i won't give up
no i won't break down
sooner than it seems life turns around
and i will be strong
even if it all goes wrong
when i'm standing in the dark i'll still believe
someone's watching over me

end here.
theBUGBEAR.

2006-02-18T01:08:00.000+08:00

BACK TO UPDATE.
valentines' is over.
had a fun time with girlfriends.
cheers to singlehood.
ohwells. thanks for the gifts.

the common test is over. how great.
on thursday,
went gai gai with stiie, drii and yh.
walked at marina square.
its sooooo HAWAII. lolx

hmmx. i dint go school today.
smth happened i guess.
canings, cases. yeahs.
ppl shld start learning from mistakes.
and i dont believe he actually did that.
it doesnt really concern us.
but it affects us somehow.
one&two, we gotta accept it i guess.
esp to two, u gotta CALM DOWN.

yupps. having been heavy on skins.
did a guy's skin and a girly one too. (:
alrytes. i gotta le.

tuition tmr.
then i'll be.
HEAVY
ON
SKINS.

outta here`

2006-02-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

its valentines tmr.
suddenly had some thoughts.
ohwells.
i cant believe i'm actually mugging thru this.
but i've got no choice.
though now i'm not in the mood to mug.
but the mugging sucks.

four papers down.
more to come.
and soon, it'll be o'levels.
i'm gonna fail chinese.
ohhhh. *expected*

i dont need expensive gifts for valentines.
tmr's not the only day to say iloveyou.
it takes everyday's walking together,
every moment of thoughts,
every second of love for each other.
its ur presence i struggle to feel.
its ur love i wonder about.
its ur words that keeep me thinking.
thanks for loving me.
to all girlfriends. kins and relatives.
esp` yh. dearr. dearie.
happy valentines. (:

i'll let it take over me for just awhile.
just for a lil while.
i promise. it wont harm.

happy 71st birthday granny.
happy birthday to constiie's mom as well.
congrats to yiyuan. (:

HAPPY VALENTINES TO ALL.
BEST OF LUCKS FOR COMMON TESTS AS WELL.

2006-02-05T02:30:00.000+08:00

BOO! i'm finally back.
i miss this place mann. grins-

CNY is still on.
celebrations were OKAY.
uncle had aftermath of chemo.
granma just discharged.
eric bro missing from home.
uncle robert swearing drunkly.
big uncle out of singapore.
doesnt seem lyk a reunion dinner at all.
but nevertheless... at least,
glad to see little ones growing healthily.
happy that wengie gave birth smoothly.
cool that eugene kor brought a korean gf.
ohwells. yupps.

COMMON TEST around the bend.
prep not done yet.
but i'll try.
esp. CHINESE.

did two skins today.
relatively pink. heh.
one about philosophy.
other about mickey!
heh. drii loves mickey.

well. i think i'll keep distance.
i'm a follower. i admit.
i wont come between u two.
stay as close as u are.
i'm not jealous cos u're close.
i'm just distracted by ur words.
words that are as sharp as knifes.
ur diamonds that cut thru me.
ur arrogance that i abhor.
STAYINGawayFROMurWORLD.
dontLEADmeASTRAY.

ohwells. yupps.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCEEE.
thanks for all the encouragement in chinese.
happy seventeen birthday. (:

gtg le.
outta here-

2006-01-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

theOUTSIDE

theOUTSIDE plus my grp member, mel.

cool huh? hees''

theBOARD.

theBOARD. (side view)

tray of togetherness. grins-

theSTARthatKEPTmeGOING. ilu`

theTHREEyearDECORATORS.
foolTWOandFOUR-

what a day. dun wanna blog actually.
just some pictures.

outta here-
i'm still sorry, joyce.
i dunno what to say.

2006-01-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

whee- i'm back again!
its the beginning of another week.

abt last week. hrmmx.
a busy week i guess.
with choir CNY item.
the class deco. hamper and lantern.
yeahs. kept me super occupied.
ohwells. as well as studies.

well at least,
the class deco DONE!
the class hamper DONE!
the class lantern DONE!
whee- great!!
the CNY item, half-done!
preparation of CMT, not started!
lolx. okay. get back to stuffs. lol

sometimes, things just happen.
if it comes my way,
i know i'll stand up against it.
hrmmx. i'll try at least. yeah.
well, for those who knows abt granny.
and uncle. yeahs.
thanks for the love u've shown.
thanks alot.

this aint no national teevee.
you gotta stop acting.
dont act the know-it-all.
dont act what u aint.
just be urself. cant you?
if nt, just leave me alone.
you're pulling me back to sqONE.
its unfair to both of us.

this goes out to joyceee,
its if she ever reads it.
dearr, i think i disappointed u.
27 for chinese test.
its so damn far from b3. i'm sry.

ohwells. yupps.
YH. thanks for the hug- (:
FOOLS. rawk on`
DEARR&DEARIE. imu2!

smth xueqing taught me today.
if you're stressed up.
just.........

BREATHE IN

RELAX

AND

FART.

lolx. so dots. but its damn funny.
had a fun time decorating the class.
it aint that bad afterall.
xcept those who just laid there.
yeah. (: grins-

fourGRACErockON. ((:
FOURgraceROCKon. ((:

whee- outta here.

2006-01-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

BACK TO UPDATE FINALLY.
think i've lost lots of readers.
but anyways,
yesterday was dad's birthday.
the day before was jack's bday.

happy birthday dad.
ur wish will come true. my 7A1s.

and as for jack:
hope you can manage time better ba.
take care loads.

the class is more or less settled.
class under process of decoration.
thks to dad who helped me wif most of it.
yupps. its the cooperation of the class also.
DWIT. do wat it takes. grins-

the choir is also alryte.
just that the seniors are leaving soon. yeah.
so gotta get the juniors to take over.
yupps. next up will be the CNY song ba.
hope joyce gets the dance steps soon.
choir chalet again!!! wheee-

ohyes. YH. hahas. bleahhs
thanks for everything. grins-
wheee-

drii. sam. stiie. FOOLS
yay. no red light le larhs.
green light says go.
we BOTH are fine. lolx.
dont so obvious arh. grins-

others-
JOYCEEE. LILIAN. DEARR. DEARIE.
miss u all loads.
study hard yeah? whee-
all the best for the results, joyceee.

Happy are those who dream dreams and are willing to pay the price to make them come true.

2006-01-12T19:44:00.000+08:00

hrmx. here to update.
kinda busy with the reopen of school.
nothing really bad.
just maybe havent really adjusted back yet.

thankful that i'm still in one piece.
cos i've got a whole list of things to do.
hahas. yupps.

dint go school today though.
was down with flu.
my shoulder's aching.

but yihui came. grins-
i'm so glad. finally see her. bleahhs.
we watched a movie.
i felt secured though.
ohwells. grins-

school's getting texing.
i better buck up.

loveGIRLFRIENDS`
outta here ;;

2006-01-08T15:52:00.000+08:00

finally i'm back to update.
might have lost some readers,
but nonetheless,

school has been fine.
graduating classes have been down.
down for a slimming programme.
its called super-THIN.
dr ernest wong has taught us many things.
hope we'll be able to apply in daily life.
now we're all aiming for the sky.
7A1s yeah? all the way-

these few days were survivable thanks to:
sammie.
driii.
zoee.
shiggy.
thanks peeps. haahas.

ITS IN THE MOMENT OF DECISION,
THAT UR DESTINY IS SHAPED.

many things happen also.
we talked. heh. i'm glad.
ohwells.
then you acted big. i closed an eye.
dont go too far.
i have my limits.

gonna get back to studying.
SEVENTY kisses in an hour.

be inspired. be expired.

2006-01-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

back to update. heh.

last few days hasnt been too good.
neither was it bad.
maybe i wasnt in the mood to blog.

anyways. school has started.
and i'm sec four.
i'm lyk. " what the hell".
feel abit stressed up.
but i wont over-tire myself.

lexann is primary one already.
hope she's getting used in school.
cos i'm already used to not having her arnd.
plus
hazel's primary six already.
and mrs yeoh is her FT.
wheee. rawks mann.
same family line: COURAGERS.
wheeeeee-

so many things happened.
but i guess,
somethings will never change.

LOVEwillFINDaWAY.

2006-01-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

test

2005-12-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

update time! hees''
hmmx. had choir early this morning.
wasnt late. grins-
taught them the dance.
yeahs. fast learners as usual.
need to practice more i guess.
hrmm. i'm back to horoscopes man.
rawks! heh.

had pizza for brunch. had buffet for lunch.
dearr came. grins-
leaned on her several times.
cos i had a bad headache.
and the gift exchange is super lame.
dots. lyk musical chairs lykdat.
yk, thanks for the krissmercs card.
packed food back then cabbed back.

yh came today.
heh. and we erm. tickled her.
grins- she kissed me! lolx.
under my help larhs. hahas.
if not so weird weird. hahahas.
before she left, i returned her one too.
big one dont blush.
i'll train u. hahas. (:

yeah. tmr's the last day of 2005.
it has been a rather fruitful year i guess.
lotsa ups and downs.

between friends:
- two integrity
- three grace
- united voices of phs
- js family
- fourfoolsfrowning.
- RTA
- some peeps i MUST mention: joyce. lilian. YH.
these ppl made 2005 a pleasant one.
the gift of frenship made me press on.
thanks all ya.

events that took place:
- pb memories.
- syf central judging
- choir camp 05
- class chalet
- choir chalet
- every single day of 2005

just when i look back,
everything of 2005 seemed beautiful.
thanks to everything and everyone.
and not forgetting the God above.

in love with my eye candy
lolx. (: wheee-

theBLACKmagic.
YONG NAO XIANG YI XIANG.
use your brain and thinkkk! (:

2005-12-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

wheee. back from chalet.
had fun with the seniors.
saw she-males. hahas. yeahs.
almost went into och.
so super freaky.
i almost wanted to cry.
luckily got joyce hold me. grins-

many thankyouus i wanna say.
thanks all for looking out for me.
esp. joyceee and lilian-
hees' love u two. hugs!

joyce, i think i grabbed u too hard.
hahas. but u made me feel secure.
wheeee. i'm glad abt ur attachment tho.
hees' krissmercs is a beautiful thing isn't?
lilian, i think i grabbed u too hard also.
but still, at least. I DINT FALL.
wheee. hahahas.

theGIRLS:

wanqi. iphillia. xingling. joyce. lilian.

yitian. yuanwen. hannah. phebe. jill.

jaslyn. geraldine.

thanks to all these ppl. (:
plus the guys also.
hahahas. i dint sleep lehs.
gawd. now so tired.
tmr got choir function again.
so tired. just now went constiie hse for dancing.
quite cool lar.
but tiring. YEAH. dots.
hahas. yuppes.

thats abt it.
blackMAGIC.
tommyLOVES.
mehmehJUMP.
all these. YONG NAO XIANG YI XIANG.
wheeee-

chalet rawked.
its the presence of ppl.

LOVE UVPHS.
ilovegirlfrens`

2005-12-28T00:20:00.000+08:00

short post today.
but big event today.

ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY.
wheee. JS.
not exactly us now..
but nonetheless.
you can go to my archives.
click on "12.04"
and scroll to 27 december 2004.
you'll see our names there.
encraved deeply in my heart.
we dint spend today together.
but we'll get together real soon.
I HOPE. lolx. yupps.
LOVE YOU PPL.

dearr came lehx.
cos she dint want me to fall.
hahas. but she sad cos ppl dao her.
tsk! that person better quickly realise.
hahas. love ya dearr.

yh came today too.
thanks alot for the stuffs from hk.
i'm erm... overwhelmed.
lol. my mother is too.
she ask u not to spend so much.
hahas. the cookies rawks.

whahahas. outta here.
off for chalet tmr.

2005-12-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

hmmmx. today is KRISSMERCS.
doesnt seem like though.

santa gave me a nightmare.
that wanted to take three ppl away.
dearr, dearie and syl.
i aint gonna say it out.
cos it aint too nice.
and dearr doesnt want me to.
so yeahh..

some thank youus i wanna say.
my wonder woman plus
SUPERHEROine plus
mighty mouse plus
lion cum
MY BELOVED DEARR. lol
she is a mouse that roars. she is someone whom cheered me up when tears were about to flow. dearr, thankew for the little little things you've done. and the roars u roared. and the wak!s you wak!ed. i'll cherish them.
hahas. thats my dearr!
thats what santa gave me last yr.

i think santa's really busy this year.
he gave me a nightmare for xmas.
he gave me a scolding for boxing day.
ohwells. i aint blaming him.
cos dearr, dearie and syl are still here.
he dint take them away. YAY!

and yh's coming back tmr.
i miss her.
i miss her voice.
i miss talking to her.
i miss her smses.
hmmmx.
i miss spending krissmercs with her.
sadded- ohwells.

maybe it aint that bad afterall.
when there are ppl arnd giving u the reason to smile.

smth i learnt today.
MICKEYMOUSE'S BEST FREN ROARS.
MICKEYMOUSE'S BEST FREN WAKS.
WHEN IT COMES TO SAVING THE WORLD.
IT HELPS BEING A MOUSE THAT ROARS.
and erm. WAK!s.... hees''

i love my dearr.
i love my mighty mouse.

2005-12-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

hmmx. i edit the time of this post.
yupps. today is krissmercs eve.
wheee..

my own spelling!
MEHREE KRISSMERCS. hees''

lotsa thoughts.
liliann knows. heh.
hmmx. then erm.
old wound again.
a tingling feeling at the butt.
hurts lots though.
ohwells.

have a great night everyone.

krissmercsAINTabtPRESENTS.
itsDEFINITELYmoreTHANthat.

i love my friends. let me name some.
it doesnt matter if i name u first or last,
cos you're still as precious to me. (:
yihui. dearie. dearr. joyceee.
liliann. sam. drii. constiie.
united voices of phs.
three grace zero five.
two integrity zero four.
syl! zhikaii. timo. emile. you.
wilfred? khaiwee. and......
the rest whom i have in my heart.
hees'' MEHREE KRISSMERCS PEEPS.

thanks for the gifts and thoughts.
i treasure all.

2005-12-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

day out with jac jie. kinda fun ba.
out for shopping lor.
jie is soo broke. lols.
thanks to two pieces of jewellery.

anyway, yh go hk le.
hope she's having fun.
she called me in the morning.
but i dint pick up.
sorry my dear. too tired i guess.
smsed her a few times.
ohwells. i miss her loads-

short post i guess.
lotsa thoughts today.
but i dont really believe,
burdens are lighter when carried by two.
i think i'll carry them on my own.
yupps.

outta here peeps.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL READERS

2005-12-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

back to update.
rainy day. its perfect.

dint go to jurong.
dearr said luckily.
cos it was slippery.
ohwells.

kinda having swings today.
abit too big for me to handle.
but i'm still alright.

got the new specs.
makes me feel dizzy at first.
but i have to wear for permanent.
thats what the lady said.
ohwells. see how lors.

i'm glad i talked to dearr.
she makes me feel... erm.
better? and she's special!
yupps. always special. ilu, dearr-
thanks for everything.

yh's leaving tmr.
zhikaii's coming backk.

never be replaced.
forever-

what are dearrs' for?
for me and youu.
thats smth i learnt today.
and its smth i can smile about.

dearr, u smile too.
its your smile that keeps me going.
love loads-

outta here.

2005-12-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

second post today.
i'm awake from a nap.

selfish is the humane heart.
i cant possibly split u into two.
neither do i want to.
its hard sharing love u knw.
sighs. ohwells.
maybe i'm thinking too much. heh.

really starting to miss ppl.
hrmm. lets see.
dearr&dearie.
fourfools.
yh. zhikaii.
the twin.
and mr claus.

when will u ever come?
i'll be waiting.

2005-12-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

blogging early today. whee
so super tired.

aint gonna mention what i did in school.
but i did have fun with the seniors.
had a rough idea of the dance steps.
made banners for yiyuan.
ohwells. gonna be shouting away soon.
he better say thank you. heh.

anyways. yh came in the morning.
she open the door so loud.
hahas. wheee. ohwells.
thanks girl for the cookies and chocolates.
hees'' hope u liked urs too.
then left school. ate with liliann and wanqi.
lol. ate MOS. they so damn funny.
hahas. senior rocks-
whee.

i'm home with hazel today.
everyone's out.
i'm gonna nap for awhile.
damn tired.

awaitingYOURarrival.
theSMILESyou'reGONNAbring.
andTHEbellsIwillHEAR.

2005-12-20T01:55:00.000+08:00

wheee. what a day.
okay i know its like so late.
anyway.

today was rather lame.
morning was alright.
afternoon yh came. wheee.
with my xmas gift.
thanks alot girl. i lyk it.
had piano lesson.

went shopping with mom. LOL
yeah. so dots.
got stuffs. xmas presents.
wheee. grins-
yeah. the presents are almost done.
just havent delivered. hahas.
whahahahas. awaiting santa.
came back. had light dinner.
slacked.
aunty is a pro at presents.
arrranging flowers.
and erm. has loads of creative juices.
whahahas. grins.-

i just had mcdelivery.
i'm lyk whthehell.
they send the food one and a half hrs later.
then make us wait twenty mins somemore.
aunty complained.
i tot they would make us lifetime member or smth.
LOL. had a fun time with aunt.

its not that bad having pregnant aunties arnd.
i kinda start liking it alrd.
whee. just abit sadded.
cos it aint twins anymore. sighs.
ohwells. best of luck.

okay. i shall go do some situps.
and talk to yh. and fall aslp.
tmr somebody gonna kiss me.
wheeeeeee. guess who?!?
dont blush if its u. wheee.
then gotta make banner for yiyuan tmr.
gonna have fun with seniors again.
wheee.

too many thoughts.
today aint the day for them.
another time. wheeeeeeee.

i just love you.
everything abt you.
you make me smile.
you make me cry.
you make me wanna-

missingdearranddearie.

2005-12-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

okay. back to update. LOL

had tuition on saturday.
yeah. then nothing much le.

today was erm.. abit too high?
went shopping for gifts with mom at ten.
got almost all the gifts alrd.
got myself a light pink top.
quite like it. hahas. love it actually.
got sequins in the front. nice!
hahas. yeah. then rushed home.
washed up and stuffs.
then out of house i went!
off to orchard to meet joyceee and lilian.
whahahahas. the hotel so grand.
hahas. then we watched them.
sing twice! hahas. grins-
then sang jiajun birthday song.
then went out to eat with them.

thanks for the seniors for making my day.
esp. these ppl.
JOYCEE.
thanks for the early xmas gift. grins-
LILIANN.
thanks for the beautiful notebook.
IPHILLIA.
thanks for the bag we exchanged.
i'm gonna get one for myself too!
WANQI.
thanks for the usual laughter.
XINGLING.
thanks for erm. the.....
ai xin hei hu jiao ji pa chao fan. lol.
omg. so lame. dots.

wheeeeeeeeeee. i love choir.
may the music never ends. YAY!
the webbie is done. finally! click HERE

whahahahahas. i'm kinda high now.
but i shall lower down abit.
hmmx. some thoughts.

i doubt ur xmas wish will come true.
i mean. i dont want it to.
say i'm evil. but ur wish is evil too.
mrTAN, you gotta be kidding.
i aint no messenger of yours.
god gave u a mouth. use it.
signed, your BELOVED jill-

keepTHOSEthoughtsINaBOTTLE.

dearie. i wont forget the promise.
must recover soon kaes? ilu-

to all:
MERRY CHRISTMAS IN ADVANCE.

dear santa,
my christmas wish this year is for everyone to be happy and loved. i dont really need anything. but tell ur workers in the SANTA factory that they're doing a good job and ask them to keep it up. (: thankew santa for the smiles you have put on the faces of the children. thankew santa for the colourful presents that fufills each and everyone's hopes, dreams and wishes. thankew santa, for everything.
signed, Jill

long post.
outta here. yawns-

sickoftown.
anywhere else to shop, peeps?

2005-12-16T10:36:00.000+08:00

okays. dots dots dots.
this is the SECOND time editing this post.
anyways.
twoI bbq cancelled. dots.
ohwells.
i'm having a flu.
ever since i came back frm the clothe yard.
so dots.

ohwells. dunno what to say.
went out with dearr and dearie plus timo!
it cheered me up alil i guess.
dearr keep WAK! lol. so dots.
ate at ramen. wheee- MANGO.
hahas. then walked back lors.
nothing much.
but its the presence that is valued.

its the dream i'm waking from.
forgive and forget.
but the memories stay close to my heart.

dont claim the know-it-all
you aint the one.

ohwells. outta here.
gastrics-
moomooCOW. oinkoinkPIG.
eiraeddnarraedevoli

let history be history.

2005-12-15T18:14:00.000+08:00

back to blog. so tired sia.
had loads of fun anyway.

first day
drii came my hse. brought stuffs.
yeah. then went to check in.
hahas. then we slack there.
xavier came with the HUMONGOUS bag.
so super biggy. dots.
then others came as well.
played mahjong. YAY! hahas.
kinda addicted to it now.
then played somemore mahjong.
watched teevee. grins-
then zoee shiggy and others came.
LOL. then noise level went up!
hhahas. played mahjong until damn hiong.
so funny sia zoe. she and her shi san yao. rofl-

went airport! wheee. cos i am the boss of
missingDEARRandDEARIE.inc
saw them! wheeeee- so happy.
they looked tired.
but i'm glad that they were back safely.
dearie's sick. take care, my dearr.
dearr looks a lil crazy as usual.
hahas. didnt hugg u two! sadded-
you two owe me a date. hees''

took last train back to chalet.
then mahjonged again. haha
then we went mac in the middle of the night.
lol. ate fries! [driii! haha.]
came back for mahjong. till morning lors.
then me and drii slept for abt one and a half hours.
from 6.54a.m to 8.26a.m.
hahahs. wheee. power nap. grins-

second day
woke up le then play mahjong again.
LOL. sammie and some girls came.
continued with mahjong. whahahahas.
ate BK for brunch. then off we went.
back to mahjong. hahahas.
sam was complaining lors.
hahas. had bbq le.
set fire. poke hotdogs.
sent potato and corn to cook.
hahas. grins-
the guys are REALLY pathetic. dots
they were lyk staring at the potato, then
"how to eat the potato one arh?"
LOL! damn funny. then i make for them.
hahas. nice hor? so sad, very little potatoes.
had gift exchange also.
got a box of chocolates. hahas.
so many ppl came.
but little ppl stayed over.
so only left us four.
me. drii. van. jasmine.
so... MAHJONG AGAIN. hahas.
the guys all watching teevee. LOL
they take the whole living room.
i was all red after drinking.
felt so warm. hahas.
went to lie on the bed.
fell aslp with yihui still on the phone.
hahas. sorry, my dearr.
hope i didnt snore. hahas. grins-

today
woke up at going to ten. dots.
almost late for check out. hahas.
the guys made a big mess man.
LOL. damn funny. the lady come.
then she shake her head. hahas.
girls room so much better.
yeah. check out done le.
i went to great aunt's place.
hahas. yeah. then went gran's place.
slept then ate. then back home.

hugging winnie now. hahas.
i sure do miss him loads.
ohyes. dearr, thanks for the keychain.
whahahas. and as for dearie,
i'm sorry i couldnt stick closely to the list.
but erm. i really lyk the cup.
hahahas. grins-
missingDEARRandDEARIE.inc

off to study.
tuition homework not done.

losing even that little piece of you.
DolbyDrowningDarknessDrainageDish.

bacardi breezers-

2005-12-12T18:36:00.000+08:00

backk to update.
i might have lost some readers.
but i guess. i'll gain them back soon.

feel as if i just woke up from a deep slp.
without any dreams.
woke up in the darkness.
but i heard voices.
i think i overslept.
tried to look around if there was anyone.
but all i could see was black.
heh. how nice huh.

I MISS DEARR AND DEARIE.
omg. they're coming back tmr lehx.
still have to wait for abt 24 hours.
sadded. sighs-
got so much stuffs to tell them.

ohwells. hmmmx.
off tomorrow again.
i'll miss my readers.

prep for chalet isnt that great.
but everything QUITE in place le.
tuition rocked today.
piano too.
but i'm kinda tired.

FOUR FOOLS FROWNING UNITE.
DEARRS UNITE.
DEARIES UNITE.
baobeii too. grins-

awaiting for their return.
TMR'S DEE DAY.
wheeeee. ilu-

2005-12-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

bOO! some photologs. (:

advertisment for MOCHA ICE BLENDED.

i was so bored. i'm sorry. haha-

aka FEMININE SALUTE

there they are. the guys!
emile. zhikaiii. timo.

THANKS FOR THAT DAY.

2005-12-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

whee. back to update.
woke up kinda early today.
had to go airport.
send dearr and dearie off.
the train journey is so super long.
stood all the way. almost black out sia.

saw dearieeee! wheeeee...
then saw dearrrrr. -double grins-
saw STER STER. lol.
my hand smaller than her.
yeah. hahas. finally proven.
sadded. they go hk le.
i think i hugged them so tightly,
as if i was gonna lose them or smth.
heh. ohwells.
zhikaii came lehx. but we didnt get to meet.
no fate arh. BETTER NOT BE.
whee! anyway. i miss dearr and dearie already.
they must be in the hotel or smth.
ohwells. I MISS THEM.

met up with mom n the rest at toa payoh.
had dimsum and stuffs.
bought baking stuffs.
but in the end,
jie came so super late. LOL
but never did baking in the end.
ohwells.

i'm outta here.
jie is telling me some stories abt nursing.
seemingly interesting!
hahas. abt all the babies under her care.
i'm back to old granny stories.

I MISS DEAR.
I MISS DEARIE TOO.
I MISS TIMO.

whee! come back soon k?
LOVE YOU GUYS. muackkks-

2005-12-08T23:56:00.000+08:00

tmr they'll be leaving le. sadded.
ohwells.

yesterday
was supposed to go fly kite.
dearie and dearr last minute cannot.
ohwells. i went with the guys.
had fun. wheee!
photos at zhikaiii's blog.
cos i lazy to upload.
thanks guys.
for sending me home. grins-
last night was erm. LONG
dint really sleep.
working on a jigsaw.
its self-exhausement in action. yupp!
hees'' ohwells.
last night was also filled with THUNDER.
was shivering away.
dearie calmed me down.
hahas. friday night better not be lykdat.
if not, i'm dead.

today
yh came! hees.
she helped with the second puzzle.
its lyk so super hard. LOL
hmmx. yeah. another ordinary day.
spent most of my time on jigsaw.
so nothing much. yupps

it isnt nice staying with pregnanters.
they get all the attention.
or maybe, i'm over sensitive.
yupp. just last words.

JOURNEY MERCY TO THOSE GOING HK.
i love dearr and dearie.
i love girlfrnds.
incldes. bigONE. fourFOOLS. joyceee!
and of course. all other precious ones.

off earlier tonight.
so i'll have energy for tmr.

black outs.
back falls.
be overDOSED.
grins-

2005-12-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

this post is sincerely dedicated to:
NATALIE CHUA YILING
my dearie!!! grins-

tmr you'll be leaving for hk le.
i will miss u.
i promise!
you must miss me too k?
hees. i know you will.

have fun over there.
i wont be having fun in spore.
and u know the reason. ohwells.

thanks for everything all this while.
thank you for giving me back me.

thank you for giving me time
to see me as I am.

thanks for ur faith in me.
it helped me to be me, again.

thank you for ur honesty.
it touched me and now I know,
inner peace.

for all these things i thank you, because
from the darkness and uncertainty,
i found a new world that gives me hope.

i am not afraid because I got
love in my heart.
i can be true to my truth
and I find acceptance
in just being me.

the joy that you gave me
gives me confidence
to face my worst fears
and I'll never forget
the gift that you gave me
in just being you
and being my friend.

HAVE FUN DEARIE.
AWAITING YOUR RETURN.
LOVE YOU LOADS.
HUGS & KISSES
WITH LOVE, JILL

2005-12-07T10:05:00.000+08:00

i've got more than enough doubts.
you are too precious,
pls dont let disaptment find its way to me,
and i definitely hope it is not through you.
sometimes i wonder if you really care.
seemingly you do.
but i never seem to get just..
that little spark from you.

dint sleep well.
dearie, nth worked agn. dots.
self-exhaustment programme into action.
gotta get back to cookies.
waves*
outta here.

kaes. this post is EDITED.
anyways, cookies on leave today.
half day job i meant. yeah.
just a ate a curry puff. sardine.
kinda bored.

sorry things have to be this way.
r0o knows kim dint want it lykdat.
jackson isnt doing anything.
they dont know r0o's feelings.
r0o shouldnt have existed.
jackson would be more happy then.
shld r0o thank kim for the unhappiness?
stay tuned for the next episode of the
"inverted boyfriend list" ...
dots. argh.

fallASLPforever.
thatsTHEbestOPTION.
wrong.SOMEcorrections!
lifeNEVERmadeOPTIONSforME.

life ;; smth you'll never get out alive of.
EAT. SLEEP. but DIE ANYWAY.
addicted to myuk motto (:

2005-12-07T02:19:00.000+08:00

okay. shant edit the post.
shall blog again.
if dearie is gonna read this, i'm dead.
its lyk erm. two plus le.
dots. still early lar k? hees''

just finished big one's letter.
hope it helps. heh.

just a few more countdowns.
so many ppl leaving.
ohwells. sadded-
three days to dearr n dearie going to hk.
four days to the hallucinations.
five days to zhikaii going to blue mtns.

out to the beach tmr.
though its incomplete,
we had our times.
fly kite? got wind meh.
if not dearr must "hu hu hu" again. LOL

i'm afraid to step into the darkness.
but seemingly so,
i feel the gleams of light holding on to me.
but i think i'm letting go. farewell.

losing those feelings.
numbbed-

GRACIOUS GRILL coming up.
threegracians watch out. whee!

2005-12-07T00:38:00.000+08:00

okay. out with drii again.
went school then go walk walk.
awhile only larhs.
but there was chemistry. heh.
kept zapping each other. lolx

anyways. today helped out at home.
annual baking season.
ohwells. self-exhaustment season as well.
its my new programme.
heh. dots. to make myself tired,
so i can sleep well at night.

now i am super busy.
zhikaii and his convos'.
OMG. so confused sia. LOL

outta here. back later.

2005-12-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

today. day out with drii.
went jurong point.
went lot1.
heh. NO orchard. grins-
very high today.
well. yeah. thanks drii. (:

RETAIL THERAPY ADDICTS.
heh. took neos too.
will upload them soon.

its e PRESENT menstrual sydrome i guess.
making me have the mood swings.
and everything else.
the CRAMPS especially.
okay. really dunno whats going on.

lost somewhere.
maybe, i just needed a hug from u.
you'll pull me back to the world.
OUTTA HERE.

2005-12-05T01:36:00.000+08:00

just wanted to blog.

as i updated the calendar,
many thoughts went thru my head.
i guess things would be different.

thanks for being the middle one.
i dunno how to say.
but i really knw u care,
care that i get enough rest n stfs.
but i really need to assure myself.
just let me go alryte?
seriously, i had more then enough rest.

give me some space.
i need to breathe.
or not,
take away the space,
i dun wanna breathe no more.

treasuring everyone.

the wind, the rain.
it always comes my way.
a windbreaker.
a rainstopper.
thats what u two are.
stand by me.

yh- that tree that never dies (:

leaving those dreams alone.
fufilling wishes first.

2005-12-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

BACK TO UPDATE. heh.

singout! 2oo5
a busy day. but i guess efforts paid off.
great day to meet ppl up.
zhikaii, emile & dearr.
we took photo. whee!
dearr, thanks. grins-
then not forgetting, YH.
thanks for coming too.
thanks for the sunflower.
thanks for the jigsaw.
thanks for the erm. letter?
i had a hard time looking for it. haha.
i need the photos. LOL
joyce, ur flowers too.

some ppl i'll miss from singout05
kidnapper-SERENA.
my beloved-RACHEL.
telicioux-TELICIA.
cute-DICKSON. lol
of course, CHUAN LIAN.
and all others who participated.
grins- see ya nxt year.

shopping trip
okay. i've been shopping these few days.
the bus trip was horrendous.
but anyways.
bought lotsa stuffs.
green tank from SEED.
orange tank from espirit.
pale green racer.
black racer.
army brown skirt from rdactive.
apple green skirt from rdactive.
black top from rdactive.
navy blue cardinal from tomsgirl.
peach-coloured dress.
pair of "girly" shoes.
a erm, star-shaped shell necklace.
a bracelet.
omgawd. i think i bought too much stfs.
fools. dearr & dearie.
i bought stuffs for u all too.
yupps. well, a good trip i guess.

smthings i realised:
- learn hw to lose.
- learn hw to not let others worry.
- learn hw to walk with my eyes closed.
- learn hw to keep those thoughts outta my mind.

first point.
i cant take it lying down when i lose to you.

second point.
i never fail to make ppl worry.
esp, dearie. =X
and dearr i guess. plus others.

third point.
dearie will know whats this abt.
there i go again. dots.

fourth point.
i should stop worrying.
i should stop thinkking TOO MUCH.

okay. END OF STORY.

i should keep those feelings inside.
how i am feeling smtimes.
or rather just my thoughts.
cos whenever i say it out,
i just make ppl worry.
bottling up once more.

i love my darlings.

RETAIL THERAPY ROCKS.

2005-11-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

okay. so friggin pissed.
but i super got no idea why.

NATALIE CHUA! lol
suprised to see ur name here?
i need to scream larhs.
u're the first person that comes to my mind.
but u not online lehx!

thousand apologies to:
YH. STIIE. DRII.
i'm like flooding u all lyk siao.

anyway, today i did nothing.
but took hazel out for breakfast.
YES. argh. i'm off.

NAT. YOU ARE STILL WANTED.

2005-11-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

updates. sighs.

today was erm. alright.
rehearsals. wet&dry run thrus.
splitting headache. argh.
but just a few ppl to mention.
joyce and erm. okay no more. LOL
she dint do much. but at least.
i feel kinda happy i saw her today.
cos she's going camp!! till saturday.
and i'll be away too. so yeah.

hmmx. today nothing much.
actually last night was my last straw.
i'm kinda fanning the flames. but wtevr`

dearie. thanks. (:
" behind your smile,
i knw there are sorrows.
behind your laughter,
i knw there are tears.
but i want you to knw that,
behind you, is me...
who'll always care."

outta here.
another wished-relapse.

2005-11-27T23:33:00.000+08:00

okay. dint blog ytd. heh.
so tired. but i did nothing ytd.
LOL. doing nothing is the MOST tiring.

this few days filled with memories.
especially when singout nears.
ohwells. tmr got rehearsal again.

anyway. today's okay.
not that bad. just abit LAME.
hahas. out with dearie.
plus ah gong & ahpa.
lame lors.
we went out OUR STYLE.
sit and stone. LOL
we walked quite alot.
saw loads of cute stuffs.
ESP THAT DOG. omg. like cushion lykdat.
dearie and me had our shoes being stepped.
LOL. thanks to dunno who. haha.
but it was fun with u guys.
thankew. grins-

another wished-relapse.
but not for tmr.
on the thirtieth we'll see.

2005-11-25T19:16:00.000+08:00

i edited my post.
cos i cant allow any others to worry.
anyway.. choir was alright today.
was late. heh. but was alright.
bought lunch for hazel.
fell asleep at the com.
played piano. and all those stuffs.

short post i guess.
might blog again later.

at least, thr's smone holding on to me in e darkness.

2005-11-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

memories.

dearie. thanks. ilu
though things arent the same anymore.
i still miss the times we spent.
now its going to repeat.
will he ever return to us?
who knows. but,
i wish
i wish
upon the star.
that one day.
we'll be complete.
somewhere.
somehow.
whatever it takes.

choir is so much better.
keeping the dream alive is nicer.
hope tmr will be okay also.

so many things have changed.
but our hearts are still the same.
what about yours?
dont u ever miss us?
dont u ever miss the times?
well. i do.
and i'm sure the others do too.

dearie, thanks.
tardy but nvm. i lyk it.
love ya loads-

incomplete without you.

2005-11-23T18:23:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna make this harder then i have to.
this is how it has to be.
there's so many things i wanna say
but you just don't listen to me.

everything i say you find a way to make it.
it sounds like i was born just yesterday.
and everything you taught me
doesn't mean a thing
so i am going my way.

this is the last night that i spend at home.
and it won't take long for you to notice,
won't take long for you find out that i am gone.

you can never change me,
say good bye.
nothing i say can change you mind because
i can't stay tomorrow.
i'll be on my way.
so don't expect to find me sleeping in my bed
because when you wake up, i won't be there

haven really intend to update.
i guess. i shant elaborate.
yuppx.

today i stand here telling u the truth.
you think its all lies.
if tomorrow i stand here telling lies,
dont beg me for the truth.

2005-11-19T20:27:00.000+08:00

hrmmx. today seems dumb.
dearie called me in e morning.
i was still slping.
she asked me for disc man I THINK.

watched fantastic four. abit dumb.
but nonetheless,
lyk i said, today's dumb!
argh. whtevr`

scolded someone for poor attendance.
better be strict with sops.
if not become lyk altos lykdat.
i really will die arh.

hmmx. i waiting for drriina.
my poolmate. lol.

you're so alone.
how you do things alone.
i'm amazed. =]

a wished-relaspe.
you make me wannna....
fall sick and die.

2005-11-18T23:13:00.000+08:00

i thought i could always count on you,
i thought nothing could come between us two.
we said as long as we would stick together,
we’d be alright, we'd be ok.
i wonder why it always has to hurt,
for every lesson that you have to learn.
i won't forget what you did to me,
how you showed me things,
i wish i’d never seen.

but I was stupid and you broke me down
i'll never be the same again.

thank you for showing me,
that best friends can not be trusted,
and thank you for lying to me,
your friendship, the good times we had,
you can have them back.

today's not alright.
but i'm okay.
i WILL BE okay.

choir was okay. tiring.
tmr is piano day.
plus studying as well.
outta here.

seeing stars.
late on medication.
a wished-relapse.

thankew for taking granted.

2005-11-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

another day passed.
you dint turn back. imu-

anyways. constiie came in e morning.
had cornflakes with milk.
heh. so dumb.
she came at 8. sat there for an hour.
see me sleep. i woke up at 9.
and i was grumbling.
cos she come then dint call me wake up.
how can liddat.
its really sweet to watch sm1 sleeping.
but nonetheless. i'm not les. LOL

had a afternoon nap.
practiced piano.
scales is okay now.
but not the pieces YET.
ohwells. practice more ba.

having abit of financial problem.
sighs. hafta save up le.
sadded. ohwells.

choir tmr.
hope attendance is okay.
and we better sing follow that star.
i want that song in.

yeah. thats abt it.
dunno what to blog le.
take care peeps. ciaos`

2005-11-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

today was okay.
it has been long since i had breakfast.
but today one was special.
constiie came.
at abt 8.15 in the morning.
i was still sleeping. haha.
she kinda woke me up.
then lazed arnd alil.
then MADE breakfast.
made french toast.
this is what we EACH ate:
two pieces of bread, one egg,
half a sausage, some french fries.
lol. the sausage abit pathetic.
cos when we put it into the oil.
it practically was BLACK.
and it was too dry.
we even took photos. gawd
kinda fun larhs. fools shall cook next time.
then studied. played. relaxed.

i did nothing today.
except for practising the piano again.
the second exam piece for gr7.
i hope i can handle.
then the two pieces for gr8.
my invention number fourteen.
two chopin pieces.
scales and stfs for gr7.
sighs. dint play well today.
ohwells. practice harder ba.
fingers arent working that well.

constiie coming tmr agn.
having a LIGHT breakfast.
cornflakes and milk. heh.

today seems all so dull.

this striked me last night.
i'm sorry i let the tears flow for u.
but i just couldnt help it.
just smth meaningful.
esp. for that one & only galaxy,
tt was thr for me mths back.

hush now don't u cry
there will be a better day
i promise you
we can work it out
but only if you let me know
what's on your mind

baby, you thought it was forever
through any kind of weather
but someday u will find what u're searching for

try again
never stop believing
try again
don't give up on your love
stumble and fall is the heart of it all
when you fall down, just try again

smile now, let it go
hey, you will never be alone
i promise you
if you can't fight the feeling
surrender in your heart
remember love will set you free

try again
never stop believing
try again
don't give up on your love
stumble and fall is the heart of it all
when you fall down, just try again

baby, when a heart is crying
its sometimes feels like dying
the tear drops fall like rain

you thought it was forever
you would always be together
but someday u will find what u're searching for

try again
never stop believing
try again
don't give up on your love

try again
never stop believing
try again
don't give up on your love
stumble and fall is the heart of it all

WHEN YOU FALL DOWN, JUST TRY AGAIN.
i knw you're still looking.
why wont u just turn back.
imissyou. still wanting my angel.
iWANTmyANGELbackk-

2005-11-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

a very short one.
today i dint go school.
went to the doctor's.
yupp. stayed at home.
fools came. fools left.
played piano.
wanted to change blogskin.
but had no inspiration.
studying tmr.

how things turn out ur way.
you'll be alright.
you'll be just fine.
joyceee, dont worry.
we'll all be okay. hugs-

2005-11-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

today. some dumb day.
i flunked my chinese mock test.
got only eleven. what the...
okay never minds.
was late for chem also.
tested for gases again.
kinda boring larhs.
but today one got SO₂ , a smelly gas .

yeah. choir was really exhausting.
did dance.
did junior choir.
did senior choir.
leaders had to stay back.
next monday got audition.
siao liao. i'm darn tired.
and i'm having muscle cramps everywhere.
i'm going to rest soon.
SLEEP I MEAN -.-'''

life's unpredictable.
i guess. i shant interfere.

thanks. to these ppl.
charlotte. zhikaii. joyceee.
thanks alot. really really.

2005-11-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

just a short post i guess.
last night chatted with kor.
he makes me open up. heh.
ohwells. yeah.

i dint come home last nite.
went gran's place.
this morning. woke up at nine.
had a bad dream. =X
then i read books.
flavor of the week, tuckes shaw.
storky, d.l.garfinkle.
alison rules, catherine clark.
these three books are officially finished.
hahas. all done by today.
i'm addicted to books.

whahahas. okay.
gotta go.
short day. short post.

let the tears stay.
let the memories linger.
let the mind free.

2005-11-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

okay. i'm abit not in the mood now.
but nonetheless.
today was okay. school as usual.
lessons were same. as boring.
my lau is so funny. drama & stfs.

choir was great. cos dearr came.
heh. i missher! she missme too larhs!
yupps. did dance. did senior choir.
then came back le.

yupps.
may the hidden thoughts be forever unseen.
outta here.

leavINg MY mind with THOUGHTS.
i wonder if you're still thr.
you said u cared.
but now i dont see u anywhere.
heh. smth i wanna say:
THANKSforACTINGlikeYOUcared.

Js: go shopping! i'll call u all soon.

2005-11-10T22:25:00.000+08:00

today is crappy.
pon history. dots.
went behind school to eat BREAKFAST.
so lame. then we waited for time to pass.
me drina vanessa plus few guys.
lol. damn lame. but ohwells.

chem was dumb larh k. LOL
but nonetheless. chem rawks.
a maths abit dots also. damn boring.
doing P&C. lame!
everything seems so lame today can.
dots. whee! i'm crazy.

after school. went constiie hse.
she not feeling well. stomach flu ba.
then watched intial D. lol
quite nice larhs. but still okay.
then we taught drina to play piano.
lame. she got two days to practice.
then must let us hear le. whahaha.
yupp. drina, jiayouus!

okay. i actually had lots to say.
but i shant. grins-
outta here. nights.

just a dream. an ordinary dream.

2005-11-09T19:05:00.000+08:00

okay. time to update.

LAST NIGHT
kor asked me stuffs.
smsed for a while.
then he wanted to talk.
so i called. grins-
i lyk talking to him.
hazel was playing afool.
talk for awhile. then he say sms.
LOL. then i sms him lor.
then we sms till i fell asleep.
was sms-ing cute monster also.
hahas. she came today!

okay.. here it goes"
TODAY WENT LIKE THIS....
me no go school today.
slept till eleven plus.
smsed constiie.
played piano.
smsed yh. she had o'level english.
hahas. she came my house.
damn funny. haha.
anyway, just stayed in my room lor.
constiie came as well.
hazel & lexann bully her lors!!!
tsk tsk tsk. hw can.
i need to protect cute monster!!!
hahas. grins- they made her eat bitter choc.
and beat her up.
and mess her hair.
and make her crazy!! LOL
hees. whahaha. i'm innocent.
i dint do anything. yeah. REALLY.
was going haf piano lesson.
so she left lor. yupp. she had to work!
ice-cream lady back to selling ice-cream.

had piano. abit monotonous.
i refused to be teachable.
argh. i dint know how to bring it up.
but i just kept shush abt it.
ohwells. what can i do anyway.

just some messages:

joyceee-
hope ur english is okay today.
weekend wanna study? haha.
must jiayouu for all the papers yeah?
today i no go sch,
so cant take ss book frm u. sry.
but imu so much. hahas. LOVE-

fourfoolsfrowning-
when are we going out huh???
i want sentosa. time for some tanning.
grins- and shopping!

kor-
faster finish A's. i'm waiting.
waited for so long le.
need to go tou tou qi.
i'll still be waiting. love ya.

thats abt it.

sometimes, when i look into ur eyes,
i see a beautiful life.
sometimes, as i look in ur eyes,
your vision borrows mine.

imu.

2005-11-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

START OF TODAY'S POST.

BORING DAY.
EXHAUSTED COS I DID NOTHING.

END OF TODAY'S POST.

2005-11-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

hmmmx. what a day.
long day. tiring day.
esp, when they dont appreciate it. fcuk

fools ate breakfast today!
damn lame larh.
it was all my idea.
but long time no go out tgt.
so just eat lor.
we were kinda early for lessons.
socialstudies was abit lame.
did group work.
then english. hmm.
i forgot what we did for english.
then amaths! i fell aslp.
but i was the first to finish the wrksht.
LOL. so bhb. nvms.

had lunch. had choir.
sing. sang. dance. danced.
play. played. the piano of cos. dots.
totally tire out myself.
took a shower when i got back.
and played the piano agn.
then did chem tys. grins-
yeah. now i'm here. yupp.

just the same ordinary day.
just another day without you.

tomorrow.
will never be the same anymore.

2005-11-06T19:32:00.000+08:00

ohwells. updates.
hmmx. thinking twice.
there arent much updates though.
yupp. fixing pieces back.
but not to their original places.

just a day,
just an ordinary day .
just tryin to get by.
just a boy,
just an ordinary boy.
but he was looking to the sky.
and as he asked if i would come along
i started to realize-
that everyday he finds

just what he's looking for,
like a shooting star he shines.

he said,

"take my hand".
" live while you can."
"don't you see your dreams right in the palm of your hand? "

well. gonna polish up this song.
maybe get kor to play drums with me.
grins- i lyk that idea.
but the song reminds me of stfs.

to me,
whether happy and unhappy,
they're still memories.
beautiful unhappy memories.
ugly happy memories.

lookingoutforthatshootingstar. ilu`

2005-11-05T16:33:00.000+08:00

hmm. dint blog ytd.
its the weekend again.
had been practising the piano alot.
doing a little revision &stfs.
ohwells. yupp.

packed my stfs.
went thru stfs.
reminded me of memories.
but never minds.
i'm keeping them in.

indulging in books.
STORYbks.
not TEXTbks.
indulging in my world.
lyk charlotte says.
"though i live in a dark world,
i still can make the sun shine for me."
ilu, spidarr.

whther or not.
u've done anything to make a difference in my life.
i wanna say thank you.
thank you.
for making me "me" now.
but if u ever miss the old me,
thank urself. outta here.

2005-11-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

hmmmx. went out today.
studied with joyceee.
dear arh. u better study arh.
i will do the tutorial for u.
but pls pls pls STUDY FIRST.
thanks for today. grins-

studying today.
met two new friends. heh.
erm. i think is erm.
charles frm northland sec.
douglas (ex-phs)..
yupp. both veh nice.
and super funny.
charles is lyk so stress.
LOL. and they all got the same problem.
all as in. joyce, charles & douglas.
their chem all dont understand de.
i tried to help a lil.
but dunno how to solve charles problem.
lol. ohmann. so paiseh.
ohwells. i'll figure it out.

yup. loss for words.
dunno what to say.
silence is deafening.
noise is overbearing.
how? argh. nvms.

gotta go. slackkish.

2005-11-02T19:26:00.000+08:00

bottling helps.
its proven. BY ME.
let the bottle caps cover everything.

school rawked today.
cos i kept silent.
chem rawked. did practical.
H₂O₂ + Mn₂O₃
the above reaction produces O₂
oxygen relights the glowing splint.
and i burnt my hand. LOL.
but i still like this one.
the test for chlorine made the lab,
smell like the SWIMMING POOL.
LOL. but fun larhs. chem rawks.

okay. got back report book.
thanks gran. u make me feel encouraged.
short moments spent.
but short moments are sweet.
ohwells. yupp.

thanks for hurting me.
it made me stronger.
at least, i learn from it.
at most, i'll cry again.
but now, i aint crying no more.
you'll see me putting on a smile.
whether the pain is thr or not.
you wont know.
you wont know, forever.
forever and ever.
cos i'm keeping it in.
today, tomorrow & everyday.

KEEP THE BOTTLES. grins-

2005-11-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

i feel so slackk.
despite studying alil.
despite finishing the invitations.
despite reading.
despite practising the piano.
argh. fcuk.

had a rather bad encounter today.
the problem is that its with crabs.
i'll never ever eat crabs agn.
wtf. sucks can. argh. nvms.

i aint turning back.
stop the foolish dreams.

2005-10-31T19:10:00.000+08:00

u know at times,
its like you're nt alone.
when suddenly everyone leaves.
i knw i'm standing alone.
when you never turn back just to look at me.
i knw you'll never be mine again.

i woke up on time.
but guess what. I WAS LATE.
kinda late only. not really.
but still late. wtf.
physics was horrible.
i couldnt haf peace.
THANKS TO SAM. -.-'''
english was just a total DOTS.
maths was done by mrs goh.
how good could today be.

heh. another thing.
i thank God,
for letting u come by me UP CLOSE.
i really apprecitated it.
BUT NO THANK YOU. f-off please.

hmmx. then choir.
still okay. no comments.

this isnt the first time.
maybe you've grown to distrust me.
whats the point of me,
making a point to at least inform u.
then it doesnt make a difference?

THIS ISNT THE FIRST TIME.
I GET OTHERS TO TELL YOU,
YOU DONT BELIEVE THEM.
IS THERE A NEED TO THE EXTEND THAT,
I'LL BRING ALL THE HOSPITAL PROOFS?!?
I COULD IF YOU STILL DONT BELIEVE.
OR PERHAPS U'VE GROWN TO DISTRUST ME.
BUT WHATS THE POINT OF ME
MAKING A POINT TO AT LEAST INFORM SM1.
THEN IT DOESNT MAKE A DIFF AT ALL.
IT SUCKS OKAY. ARGH.

how you threw me to the ground.
how you left me standing all alone.
i dont care if i need lessons on attitude.
I HAVE MY OWN.
I CAN BE NICE IF I WANT TO.
BUT DONT BLAME ME IF I TURN NASTY.
its all thanks to the surroundings.
THANK THEM YEA?
THANK THEM!

2005-10-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

sianns. back to update.
today was a total sleepy day.
its one of those kind of days which i sleep alot.
but at least, i did study alil.
A LITTLE TINY WEENIE BIT. lol

then cousins came.
got three little boys came.
they're like super cute.
aged three, five and seven.
the youngest one got severe mood swings!
lolx. and two others are a little quiet.
hahas. my piano was almost dented.
wth. but its alright now.
LOL. my poor piano.
but i'll polish it tmr. grins-

its a boring day today.
though i was BUSY sleeping.
lol. yh- i'm sorry i dint reply u.
but still, imu. hahas. love-

ohwells. i better be going.
its the HOLIDAYS.
but theres still LESSONS. dots.

yesterday, a night-gone thing.
yesterday, a sun-down name.
its all about yesterday.
how we loved.
how we smiled.
how we shared the tears.
but today isnt yesterday.
things have changed.
i know they have.

2005-10-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

school open house today.
woke up late. but wasnt late.
choirr feels all different. hmmx.
anyway. i think miss yee is right larhs.
we can sing very well in par.
but in the hall, we sound awful.
sians. gotta jiayouu on this point le.
joyceee came! liliann came!
whahahahas. im glad to c them.
grins- imu two loads mann. haha

went to the library. borrowed books.
then came home. so slackk.
chatted with yh.
cute monster nv fails to make me smile.
hahas. thanks girl.
i slept also. heh. surprisingly.
i think i didnt really eat anything today.
i'm kinda hungry now. =X

and i'm gonna study!
i finally finish sec3 syllabus for amaths!
yay! bino theorem is lyk... easy?
at first i tot it was complicated.
but it isnt. whahahahas. amaths rawks-

tmr's sunday. yay! another day to slack.
no larhs. i'm gonna study! grins-

another thing to yay! about...
fools are gonna work.
its a retarded job. LOL
but since we're fools,
there isnt much to complain abt.
the pay is good. grins-

keeping those feelings inside.
shant let them out.
keeping those thoughts unseen.
shant let them be seen
keeping those words unsaid.
shant let them be said.
bottle up ROCKS TOTALLY.

ihs nait oaix ym rof gnitiaw
wo yi ting hui zai yuan di deng ni de.

2005-10-28T22:04:00.000+08:00

face it.
fade it.
fake it.
fuck it.
ohwells. school hasnt been tt great.
eoy thanksgiving service was crapp.
so last minute. what u expect.
ys. i'm sorry arh. always make u wait.
tiff. you're really good.
hahas. u actually sight-read that thing! lol

in class. we wrote the lists.
jack's doing logs.
xavier's doing food.
seems like we've got stuffs to plan.
hahas. huijia's collating stuffs.
i'm glad at least we're helping.
yupp. hope things go right.
i hoping ba. yeah.
no fights alryte guys? it aint nice.

hmmx. then choirr.
it wasnt that bad larhs.
i ate lunch with audrey & ys they all.
had headache during prac.
but no choice. had to continue.
stayed back for cheorography also.
yeah. so tired. then walked back.
sians. its meaningless walking home alone.
but ohwells. the higher cl ppl studying.
so constiie cant pei wo.

yh! u better take care.
dont want u to fall sick. grins-

fools! i'm sorry.
i dunno what to say.

spidarr! talking to u now.
heh. i miss u. see u at my journal.
love loads`

joyceee! i hope you're nt seeing this.
but nvms. u shld be studying.
hahas. i wei ni ta qi. prays*
jiayouu jiayouu jiayouu-
you can do it. i knw u can. love-

i'm in love with kevin kern.
ohmans. new age piano.
whahahas. rocks totally.

attitude.
a thousand worlds.
a thousand thoughts.
a thousand hours.
a hundred people.
a hundred dreams.
a hundred wishes.
but only,
one me.
one life.
one mind.

open your heart.
hear the music.
close your mind.
face the music.

you? guess things are okay now.
though we're not talking.
at least, never did imu that much.
yupp. erasing in process.

outta here.
long post.
*btw, ytd's was an EXTRACT from e bk.
not my experience. hahas.
dearr will knw why.

2005-10-27T19:50:00.000+08:00

just eaten dinner.
had gastrics just now.

from the view of ruby oliver- rOo.
kim, nora and cricket must be talking abt me. i feel like a leper now. but where is meghan? jackson is madd at me. he'll never talk to me again. i thought he would come and apologise to me at the spring fling. but instead, when i tried to kiss him, he subsequently kissed me then pushed me away. Heidi saw us kissing. i guess kim will never forgive me. kim, nora and cricket have stopped talking to me. now, i'm officially a leper at Tate.

i've finished the boyfriend list.
magnificent.
definitely my type of book.
and it just suits the mood today.
i need a shrink.
i definitely need one.

the chalet date is confirmed.
the lady called me so many times.
i want my cute monster.
i'm tired of talking to winnie.

tmr is eoy service.
hope i'll be able to play correctly.
tiff's playing piano.
which means i wont be alone.
hmmx. good. it better dont rain tmr.
ohwells. sighs.

let the story be my life.
the boyfriend list. e.lockhart

noEHTegrevFOnoisserped.

2005-10-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

second post again.
i've got too many thoughts.
ys still said he wanted to get me herbs. -.-'''
its no use okay.
and i wont eat also. so wats the point.

JOYCEEE. i'm glad i talked to you.
you gotta jiayouu k?
i really wished ur o's quickly end.
cos i'm really really bored. =X
hees' imu. LOADS.

ohwells. feel so lost.
but never minds. yh's here. grins-
cute monster is here to protect me!
ice-cream lady will make me smile.
nothing to worry. haha.

ironic life.
contradicting facts.
pushing me off the edge.
letting go off what i held on to.
i want my angel. xiao tian shi.

adapted from lxhy.
" dang ni mi shi de shi hou.
wo yi ting hui zai yuan di deng ni."

i miss you.

2005-10-26T18:58:00.000+08:00

better blog first.
later no privacy. argh.
nvms. mom's on half day leave.
hmmmx.
so she has nagged at me for e whole afternoon.
wtf. nvms.

drina dint come today.
the vball girls had training.
vanessa dint come also.
left me and sammie in class.
we took turns.
when is sammie's turn?
ohwells. doesnt matter.
school was boring.

had a STD talk. (sexually transmitted diseases)
i think the speaker is a good one.
not that i'm sick like him or wad.
just that i think his aim was met.
yup. at least the message was brght across.
at least TO ME. heh.
love NOT equals sex.
sex NOT equals love.

then had career seminar talk.
by sandra's dad.
then recess. filled with monopoly. -.-'''
then dengue fever talk. by mr lau.
then some senior citizen talk.
by him as well.
went back to class to slack.
afterall we had to wait for the bell.
then they were playing monopoly AGN.
lolx. sam! you're unlucky today.
anyways. it was just another day.
another day without you.
i'm dead tired can.
its lyk cant even open my eyes properly.
argh. piano lessons sucked today.
i just couldnt focus. fuck

i know u're wishing i'd turned back.
but have u ever wonder tt i'm wishing that
i never started this journey with Him.
like yh said. whether it is gd or bad.
i've met u. thats smth i cant deny.
but i think i'm gonna treat u..
hmmx. like how u treated her.
we dunno each other. gdbye-

chong just called. i was surprised.
we're going to work. whahahas.
holidays seem all packed.
but i guess. i'll haf time for u.
at least. I HOPE.
hmmx. yupp. i think i'll blog ltr agn.

so many thoughts.
so little words.
so many things.
so little time.
so much pain.
so little pills.
so many friends.
so little pillars.
so many problems.
so little solutions? no!
there isnt a solution at all.

stop believing
i will change.
stop dreaming
i would change.
stop wanting
me to change.

i need a list.
i need a shrink.
i need my angel.

2005-10-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

second post. bottled up.
sighs. let the tears flow ba.
guess i'll be talking to yh again.

i dunno whether i should say this.
but i guess i'm going to.
whether or not he likes u.
i'm gonna wash my hands off.
though i haf the feeling he does.
but this i really cant care.
i cant let the emotions take over.
so, i'm sorry if i cant help in the future.

i talked to winnie just now.
u might be thinking who it is.
it is just someone who stays,
by my side no matter what.
always there for me to hug.
always there but not listening.
but i still talked to winnie.
i think i'm insane. but doesnt matter.
winnie's still thr no matter what.
i hugged winnie.
hoping winnie would hug me back.
but winnie would never hug me back.

ohwells. i still love winnie. heh-

i want my angel.
i want my angel back.
i want my angel back here.
i want my angel back here now.
i want my angel back here now with me.
u know who u are.
xiao tian shi. ni zai na li.

2005-10-25T13:47:00.000+08:00

okay. me no go school today.
ohwells. nothing much actually.

YIHUI. thanks again.
for accompanying me thru e night.
for staying awake till i'm asleep.
for erm. always being thr for me.
and ur birthday really really makes sense.
grins- take loads of care. cya soon!

JOYCEEE. the song u sang for me.
hazel is addicted to it.
she hears it every night before she slp.
hahas. ur voice is sweet.
no no no. it is sleepy! haha
thanks dearr. jiaayouus for o's.
13 days left. gotta work hard ya?
imu. hugs-

DEARR. this is for josephine weee.
haven seen u for a long long time.
next week must go out k.
dont always worry for me.
i'll be okay de. haha.
cookies and cream. now and forever.
rmb? hahas. grins-

ohwells. haha.
just these three ppl make me feel all better alrd.
not saying that others r not impt.
everyone is, in a way or other.
hmmx. okay. just a few more.
today's post is a message board. haha

FOOLSnumberONEandTWOandTHREE.
lolx. eh. sry arh. today no go sch.
look at fourfools for the reason.
i'm feeling abit better le.
just that i keep hearing voices.
hahas. take care, fools. LOVE-

YS. heh. surprised to see ur name here?
whahahahas. thanks for being nice.
grins- ohyes.
dont worry you're not replacing anyone.
just taking a new place.
dont understand? ask me! hahas.

YOU. i dunno what to say.
i aint going to do anything bt this.

kkaes. end of messages.
today lyk so many ppl pon liddat.
hahas. tmr see how lors. grins-
outta here.

no matter who comes and go.
you'll stay in my heart.
forever.

2005-10-24T19:15:00.000+08:00

geog trip today was kinda dumb.
some counted number of pedastrians.
some counted number of vehicles.
hmmx. guess wad i did.
i drew a floor plan of level two of OUB center.
sat at BK for quite some time.
syug tba klat meht gniraeh
elbatrofmoc leef yllaer tnid
eciohc on dah tub
oot yaw emas eht tlef assenav kniht i .sllewho

choirr. was dots.
i was feeling so damn tired.
and then was having headache.
how good could it haf been.
making things worse.
higher chinese students all excused.
so constiie they all nv come.
things seemed alone.
though i knew they werent.
i just felt that way.

thanks YS. grins-
i forgive you for not picking up my call.
hahas. thanks for the cabby.
indirectly i mean. heh.

now home feels strange.
like smth's missing.
but just dunno what it is.

when believing seemed the hardest,
you left.
now that i'm standing alone,
i know,
that you will nv come back.

YIHUI. thanks for last nite.
ur presence. the words. everything.
thanks alot. for being e one,
standing with me.
when everything just fades away.
love ya loads -

walking in the rain seems all perfect.

2005-10-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

hmmmx. a thinking day.
i knw u ppl care.
i dunno how i can change.
but its just too hard.
this aint how life should be.
it never goes my way anyway.
sighs. ohwells. too late.

i need time out.
dearr, its time we get together.
go pb. grins-
i really miss u alot.
i really really miss u alot alot.

joyceee. u gotta jiayou le.
i knw u trying ur best.
i'll try my best to motivate u also.
u wont take o's with me ok.
me and lilian still haf a long way of
one year and fifteen days.
you've got FIFTEEN days LEFT.
gotta finish the race. ilu.

getting worse.
living life more fully.
YIHUI. needa talk.
YS. i called u, u dint pick up.
YOU. i m sorry.

outta here.
let the postcards tell the story.

2005-10-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

second post today.
dunno whats wrong with me.
but never minds.

things are not the same anymore.
the laughter we had.
the late nights we shared.
they're all gone.
they'll nv be back again.
i knw they'll never be,
the same like before.
ohwells. sighs.
[drina, thanks.]

the threegrace05 chalet is confirmed.
on 6-8 december.
at aranda country club.
seems like i'll be the only fool there.
hmmmx. ohwells.
it'll be a breakaway. i hope. grins*

i seriously dint do anything practical today.
other then talking on the phone.
other then chatting on the net.
other then sms-ing YIHUI. YS. WIL.
i dint do anything else.
lolx. wth.
tmr gonna study with joyce and lilian.
i miss them! LOADS (:
i need my love. and a maths worksheet.
haha. dont be late alryte. hees''

alright. ohyes. i talked to kor just nw.
hahas. grins*
he's ever so happy to hear me
i am too. imh.
& i miss him as much as he misses me.
or maybe just a lil more. lol
okay. watsup with this missing thing.
lolx. i'm madd-

to conclude. these are the ppl i miss.
- the old us
- the old u
- JOSEPHINE WEE. dearr
- NAT.dearie
- JOYCE.and.LILIAN
- FOURFOOLS.drina&sam&constiie
- kor.cc
one i'll nv forget tho she's at the end of e list.
YI HUI.ice-creamLADY.
[whahahahas. imuL-]

lolx. this ish dumb. but nvms.
since when am i not. lolx.
outta here.

2005-10-23T00:37:00.000+08:00

2005-10-22T10:18:00.000+08:00

sighs. alrights. i'm quite irritated.
at my house now..
there are three senior citizens.
and they're talking abt us. (youths)
they dont understand why we keep looking at the small screen on our handphones and keep pressing and pressing the buttons EVERYWHERE we go.
i'm quite sick of hearing them talk.
but i dont haf a choice.
they complaint abt us cos we say they never pick up our calls when we call them.
goodness i dunno how to put this across.
but i'm really getting irritated.
not that they're talking crap.
it makes sense to me.
but do they haf to talk SO loud.
but do they haf to talk till so AGITATED.
i'm having a bad headache mind you.
and i'm starting to feel nauseous.
the doctor was right.

ohwells. wth.
this spoils my mood.
ytd was no good.
i dint go choir.
cos my mother dint allow.
& she doesnt believe me.
if she had trust me to do the job.
why is she suspecting me.
humans are always suspecting each other.
thats why all of us are actors.
we act. then re-act to the situation.

okay. tmr maybe going to study with joyce.
lilian must come hor.
i want my love. and the a maths worksheet.

okay. some announcements.

threegrace05 chalet
date: 6-8 december.

two integrity peeps, better quickly decide the date. the chalets are running out. -.-'''

okay. due to these two things.
i'm getting a big headache.
just need to make decision faster.
okay. anyway. i gtg.
wanna prac the piano.
outta here-

inu more than ever.
but you're no where.

2005-10-20T18:35:00.000+08:00

today is disastrous man.
dint really stay with the class.
instead i was with constiie.
had to practice for the duet.
and i'm lyk. "wth"
the music fest was QUITE interesting.
the drama one.
yeah. its cool. LI-TER-RA-TURE
whahahas. i'm crazy.
then i saw joyceee. grins*
hees. i was glad to see her.
as in. REALLY GLAD. haha.
i want to go and study.
i MUST go and study.

then after skool cabbed home.
having headache for the whole day.
it doesnt come and go anymore.
?latipsohehtdeeniod
yeah. its getting esrow.

outta here.
i need a rest.
send the ambulance.

2005-10-19T16:39:00.000+08:00

okay. back to post. heh.
great. i haven been updating regularly.
life seems so much more boring.
esp. after the exams. wth.
but never minds.
nevertheless, i'll still blog.

monday was alryte.
dint go choir.
the results sucked.
when i knew i failed english.
there she was. grins* thanks, dearr.
thanks for coming at the right time.
heh. but the whole class is promoted.
yupp. ohwells.
i'm quite disappointed with myself though.
esp for chemistry. sighs. nvms.

ytd. was crap.
shant really mention.
but those who know, will know. ya?
hmmx. today.
was more crap.
had some lifestyle talk.
then a personal grooming thing.
felt kinda empty without the crappers.
shiggy pon today.
zoe had vball training.
vanessa went hpt.
sam had lit enrichment.
so left me and drina.
we slept for an hour can. dots.
anyways. tmr's music fest alrd.
i'm not prepared.
hafta practice with constiie.

stringes&needles.
i dont want life to change.

u're not out of my mind.
in fact, u're always thr.
i dunno who put u thr.
but i cant get u out.
i kinda want u in my life.
but aint gonna push things.
let fate decide
who goes where.
let destiny bring
us to where we're suppose to be.

outta here-

2005-10-16T19:12:00.000+08:00

its time i updated. ohwells.

friday went out with constiie.
studied then relax abit.
yeah. thats all lors.

weekend was mysterious.
aint gonna talk abt it.
stayed out with u. grins*

tmr's back to school already.
not really ready to go back.
to me, its like hols already.
not really in the mood for anything.
ohwells.

thanks for not missing me in my absence.
thanks for acting like u cared.
i dunno why u did that.
but i get ur message. THANKS.

wtf. aint in the right mood.
peace out`

2005-10-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

ohwells. what a day. heh.
we went all the way to east coast.
wilfred came in the end.
we all waited for him.
i promised sam i would come back with her.
so i did.
we went east coast.
rode bikes. cycled.
saw a huge sand castle.
and also got abit lost.
heh. sammie. grins*
we're happy we got lost tho.
LOL. anyways. today.
made me sort of my feelings.
aint feeling that down.
but i'm closing up. thanks to u.
heh. its alrights. no one's fault.

came home.
figure out how to use image map.
finally. i got it.
i tried for 5 hour plus. wth.
sam, i'm gonna use it on ur new skin.
hahas. grins*
i'm on some blogskin craze recently.
helped lilian with hers.
then sam's one.
and then the fcube de.
ohmann. definitely crazy.
whahahahas. double grins*

i'm mad.
sam's mad.
joyce's mad.
we're all mad.
LOL. isnt it cool.
how we suddenly all get mad?
damn funny. heh.

alrights. then tmr gonna study.
yay! finally. i'm so happy.
with constiie.
might practice duet as well.
grins* whahahahahas.

mom was mad just now as well.
scold me like siao.
then punish me somemore.
suddenly make me feel so small girl.
the worst thing is she punish me...
TO WASH CLOTHING. wtf.
i was damn pissed.
but i'm okay now. hahas.

ohwells. alright. i better get started.
i wan sam to get a surprise tmr.
grins* wheee!

outta here.

FourFoolsFrowning.
now and forever.
Rawk. Rule. Reign.

2005-10-12T20:33:00.000+08:00

what a night.
what a day.

last night was horrible.
insomia. stayed awake most of the time.
eyes closed. mind wide open.
argh. this is just the beginning. i guess.

today. no go anywhere.
stay home. slack. studied abit. heh.
then went consti hse awhile.
discussed bt chalet.
discussed abt stuffs.

tmr we're going out.
east coast or sentosa?
and what time. argh.
not confirmed yet.
sadded. we're never decisive.
four fools will always be frowning.
wth. argh. never minds.

giving u my blessings.
she says its not worth it.
so i aint gonna cry.
gonna prove to u.
without u, i'll do just fine.
sighs. things will turn out fine.
even if they dont, i'll make them fine.

picking up that razor.
never letting it go again.

dont treat others as complusory.
when you're only their option.
this is a unfair world.

2005-10-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

i aint no metal.
i aint any non-metal.
low reactivity.
high level of laziness.

dots. okay.
all of a sudden.
the mood is dampened.

i rmb the times,
we used to hang out.
but things seems different now.
i guess i've changed.

now its after the exams.
there's bound to be changes.
i hope you'll get ur happiness.
i dunno how i'll react.
but i'll just stand by the side to watch.
i hope she aint e girl they said.
cos i know. disappointment isnt great.

i want yi hui.

suddenly..
studying makes sense to me.
its kinda dots i know.
but i'm gonna study tmr.
so if u've nothing to do tmr,
dont mind just drop by my house.
see if i'm still alive. lols
alryte. anyways.
the EOYs ends tmr OFFICIALLY.
the whole week is off.
and i guess. i'll be chilling.
but it seems like the whole idea has changed.

slacking aint the word for me.
joyce, i pei ni study.
whahahaha. grins*

i want yi hui.
i want girlfrnd.
i want girlfrnd.
i want girlfrnd.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh`
save me from this confusion.
come and take my breath away.

i've got a big question for God.

2005-10-11T17:32:00.000+08:00

alryte. shall take this time to blog.
cos lil boifrnd is bathing.
so still have some time. grins*

anyways. EXAMS ARE OUT!
double grins*
we're chilling already.
drina, sam and constiie just left my house.
we went OVER-town. lol. bugis larhs.
we ate. we "shopped".
we celebrated. we sung.
we laughed. we ate swensens.
we wished drina HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
whahahahhaas. and swensens was free!
grins* big secret. shhhhs`

drina-
this is to make up to u for that day.
hope u enjoyed today.
as well as the slippers. grins*

i slept in the train. was so tired.
exams finally over.
but i still feel like studying. heh.
crazy me. anti-climax.
chem was great today.
think shld be can pass.
i scared they moderate lehx.
hahas. but nvms. grins*

ohwells. i'm glad we're out today.
feel so BONDED. dont u think so, sam?
whahahahahas.
no skool fer the rest of the week.
which means..... chilling out!
hahas. grins* east coast tmr alryte?
i need some beach-y feelings.
hahahas. double grins*

mum's coming back today.
i dunno whether issit a good thing.
but i guess it SHLD be.
the restrictions would be back again.
but never minds. it's my life!
yupp. Happy Birthday, Grandpa!
i'm not gonna wear nice nice.
cos i want to throw drina's face ALL AWAY.
whahahahahas.

i heartt drina.
i heartt constiie.
i heartt sammie.
hmmmx`
i heartt joyceee.
i heartt that special you i'm waiting for.

to me, u arent anything.
to me, u are everything.
my world. my life.

2005-10-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

alryte. time to blog.
haven blogged this weekend.
so here i am. grins*

this weekend.
filled with loads of stuffs.
post-exam anticipation.
chemistry stress.
abit of shi-lian'ing. LOL. [sam, *winks*]
yeah. all these stuffs.

i'm glad i told you.
at least, nothing's changed.
we're still talking.
and of course. being true?
heh. i'm glad u were thr last night.
when i almost cut. yeah.
ohwells. thanks yea?

dayanna just went off.
i'm quite prepared for chem i guess.
and geog paper1 i hope.
the last few papers look more OPSTIMISTIC.
haha. for me, at least.

lastly, this is dedicated to my beloved girlfrnd.
SAINT. DRINA LIMMY-
heyya girl. thanks for everything.
though only closer to u this year.
you're always that NICE.
you're always that FUNNY.
not forgetting, always LAME. grins*
dont stop smiling alryte?
ur smile. it brightens up my day.
ur words. it makes everyday a fruitful one.
thanks loads yeah? smiles*
sorry for not being able to pei ni that day.
i promise i'll make it up to u.
AFTER EXAMS, WE'LL GO CHILL ALRIGHTS.
tmr, i'll update u on stuffs. grins*
most imptly.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY.
i heartt girlfrnd. muackks-
love ya loadds` hugs!
friends for life. now and forever!

thats all. gotta go.

love friendship. it makes life beautiful.

2005-10-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

hmmx. shall blog while chatting.
today isnt good.
ys woke me up.
but i woke up at the wrong side.
that signifies a bad ending of a week.

anyways. chinese was crapped.
barely pulled thru. but who cares?
its over anyway.
wilfred- i'm glad the paper was gd.
sam, wQ - we're gonna fail. yay! -.- dots.

its the weekends agn.
mum's not back yet.
i feel alone. but its alrights.
sometimes feelings arent just feelings.
you just hafta get immuned.
yup. i'm immuned. so its alright.

friends still rawk.
no guys for me. i dont need any.
whether issit him or you.
doesnt matter anymore.
you both are IMPORTANT to me.
tho one has left.
i dunno abt the other. i just miss you.
yupps. miss you.
miss being by ur side. love.

hmmmx. woah.
i'm glad the gnikamhctam is over.
things seem more complicated.
but together. we'll pull thru it alright, sam?
grins* i'm glad no one blames you.
other then drina who is still abit shocked.
hahas. yeah. lols.

alright. thats abt it.
i dont lyk today.
sucks. i dont talk to you.
i dont talk to him.

i need those bottle caps DESPERATELY.

2005-10-07T01:36:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna ruin my life.
and prove to you,
i need you beside me.

today is lyk so slack.
cmi larhs. argh. anyways.
i talked to kor just now.
kinda glad to hear his voice.
*grins* thanks kor.
u brighten up my day
and make me at least, smile?

heh. dunno why today.
mayb just now talked abt stuffs.
cos some1 was lyk smiling when he dint it.
it always make every genuine smile less true.
these humans are just practically
destroying their only expression of happiness.

whatever`

say i haf a attitude.
anyway, WHO DOESNT? wtf-

outta here.

2005-10-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

don't tell me to correct my ways
fix things that have gone wrong
the pieces that are missing you see
are the ones that make me strong.

love this part of the poem.
ohwells.
things arent how they use to be anymore.
i admit i cant get over u.
but i'm trying my best.

geog paper was crap. not prepared.
add. maths. hah!
as usual, dont intend to pass.
this eoy seems rather slackish to me.
doesnt even seem lyk an exam.
i dunno why i'm so stressed.
but i'm so damn slack. argh.
september has ended.
BUT I HAVENT WOKE UP. wth.

yeah. today bought stuffs for hazel.
and joyce's "love". hahas.
grins. i miss her man.
she ah. always never go skool.
sadded. tmr i not going skool.
dont haf papers tmr.
but i guess, i'll be slacking at home.

alryte. thats abt it.
today aint a good day.
you remind me of the past.

i wanna hold you tight.
never let you go.

2005-10-04T18:45:00.000+08:00

heh. today's bad.
dint haf enough sleep.
furthermore,
had to meet constiie very early.
yupp. eh!
thanks for waking me up. grins-

yay! joyce came.
she CAME. yeah. lol.
i lyk so excited rite? haha.
of course larhs. this girl arh...
TSK! dunno what to say. haha.
thanks for the love, dearr.
i'm was quite surprised.
u took the time write a short note for me.
its simple. but i appreciate it.
yupp. i love the "love".
shall give u more "love" next time.

ohman. sadded. though hist was gd.
haha. i only studied russia.
and russia came out. LOL
what a joke. okay. lame.
then physics. woah`
a total flunker. confirm.
zoe wants to recycle her paper!
haha. damn funny.
anyways, physics i think wont do well.
i got alot dunno how to do.
yupp. sadded. sighs.

yupp. tmr's amaths. and geog.
should be okay.
since i've been reading up quite alot.
i guess it'll be alright. I HOPE.
yupp. thats abt it.

things are obvious sometimes.
but we take for granted the small things.
till we realise that the small things
are the one that makes life complete.

i miss being by ur side. love.

2005-10-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

hmmx. i changed skin.
i'm so crappified today.
guess what i did.

woke up at 1 plus in the afternoon.
spent the whole afternoon at the com.
TILL NOW. doing my new skin.
ohmann. sighhs.

and now, i'm sneezing lyk siao.
argh. is the EOY really here?
i'm lyk.. so slack? ohwells.

abt ytd. i dint expect much.
met wilfred. at khatib mac.
saw edwin, chongzhen and genegoh thr.
they were studying lehs.
believe it? lols.
yeah. then met joyce le.
but never take photos. lols.
ended up at bishan mac instead of library.
whahahahas. i'm gonna fail my maths!
grins. wth.

alryte. mum left for aust alrd.
gonna miss you, mum!
i just hope i can wake up in the morning.
heh. outta here!

cant help falling in love with you.
i fell for you,
at the wrong time.
at the wrong place.

2005-09-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

hmmmx. argh!
thr's a prob wif my internet connection.
had to disconnect & connect so many times.
anyways. its the weekend again.

the week had not been that fruitful.
out with frens most of the time.
out for lunch. for studies. lols.
had loads of fun i guess.
esp. with kiwi arnd.
he's veh gao xiao can.
lolx. he anytime will angry angry de.
then bend the fork.
throw paperball.. LOL!
yeahh. nice guy and super funny!
and joyce arh. her aiming damn gd.
i cannot make it larhs.
i love peppermint green tea.
whahahas. *grins.

wells. school had been quite stressful.
with rushing syllabus n stuffs.
but i'm lyk so slack. lols.
joyceee hasnt gone to skool for TWO days.
but i'm glad she's back today.
saw her was lyk SO happy. serious!
her hair cut is nice! when let down larhs.
yea. i wan cut hair! bleah.
loads of post-exam programmes alrd.
but i think after exam i wan to study.

tmr's children's day! *grins*
i'm gonna go out with joyceee to celebrate it by destroying childhood thru studying! lols.
okay. lame.
i'm in the mood for photos though.
lols. weird huh.

he's waiting. i'm waiting.
i'm seeing u everyday.
with the same ppl.
at the same place.
and he thinks you're studying.
i really hope what shiggy say is NOT true.
it better not be.
i want him to be happy.
he needs his happiness. i need mine.

sam. drina. constiie.
exams are gonna past really soon.
and we'll be chilling out real soon.
yupp. real real real soon.

sam. it's more than frens la.
its quite obvious u know.
you cant be oblivious of the fact!

drina. constiie.
thanks for the laughter.
jiayouus for eoys.
love sistas loads-

gonna work hard.
everyone jiayouus!

bottle caps and me.
i love the bottles.
and i know they love me too.

LOVE GIRLFRIENDS-
MISS YA ALL.

2005-09-28T18:52:00.000+08:00

ohman. my nose hurts.
argh. its 10 days since i ate medicine.
lolx. who cares.
anyways. lessons were erm.
as usual today. alil crappified.
but ohwells.

after school went out with frens.
had lots of time laughing away.
lols. and sam arh..
i did NOTHING. serious!
not my fault lors. anyhow scold me.
and then hor, its lyk.
we all three change surname.
WE DINT LORS. maybe for sam only lah.
whahahahahahas. library rawks.
kiwi juice not nice rite?
and then came back le.
so tired. had piano lesson.
gonna bath and study.

ohyes. i met a child prodigy today.
Tiffany. 1 integrity.
she's lyk. erm. diploma LT.
ohman. i dunno where to hide my face.
hahas. anyway, she's nice!
got abit shy. but smiles sweetly.
nice to know ya girl! jiayouus for EOY.

outta here.
aint keeping the candles burning.
aint keeping the dream alive.
just keeping the ME that i used to know.

2005-09-27T17:16:00.000+08:00

alryte. back to blog.
hasnt been well these few days.
ever since i've did that scope.
my nasal passage seems blocked?
hahas. dunno. i not doctor.
it did bleed several times.
but . ohwells. never minds.

i keep seeing you,
appearing infront of me.
with the same person,
over and over again.
i hope things arent lyk what shiggy said.
you haf ur strengths too.
i shant judge. let God do his job.

revision hasnt been quite fruitful.
i keep falling asleep. lolx.
and i keep slacking. hahas.
and one more thing.
xavier's back! *grins.
at least...
history lessons wont be that boring anymore.

yupp. well. truth is out.
we both feel the same way. hah.
drina, you're always the audience.
fi fi fa fa fo fo. *grins.
sam, hi5. we think the same way COS
fools seldom differ! lolx. -winks-
its kinda impossible lyk what he says.
but being friends wont harm!
drina CHUA. =X hees. bleah.

outta here. take a shower.
then back to revision.
library rawks-

missing girlfrndS `
getting over you--

2005-09-26T01:43:00.000+08:00

shall blog before i sleep.
hmmx. went church today.
fred brought me there.
got abit weird.
ppl with their surprised looks.
ppl with their questions.
ppl with their inqusitiveness.
ohwells. at first it was weird.
after awhile, i felt erm.
unfeelingness? is thr such a word?
alryte. never minds.

dad came to pick me.
went library. *grins.
woohoo! got books to read le.
anyways, i tried studying.
the moment i read the geog notes,
i fell asleep. sadded.
its kinda discouraging. but nvms.
i'll work harder.
but now, maths sucks!
i hate maths. i cant even do a simple equation.
wth. i hate i hate i hate MATHS.

trying hard.
but gonna give up soon.

watch me fall.
see me cry.
laugh if u want to.

~~iamonlyPRETTYwhenicry~~

2005-09-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

argh. promises.
thanks to that word.
i'm bound down to a thousand thoughts.
wth.

wished you were here.
wished you understand.
wished i dint promise you anything.

im sorry if i made u disappointed.
things arent just how they use to be.
they'll never be i guess.

sighhs. exam coming.
i haven study yet. wth.
and i cant even do a simple equation.
wtf. i aint lyking this.

quietus. loving afterlife.

2005-09-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

constiie's at my place now..
whahahas'' anyways, today was tiring.
i slept really late last night. at abt 530.
so i'm lyk.. keep yawing?

hahas. had grad nite today.
quite succesful i guess.
kinda cried. joyce, imu alrd.
took pics. a bit only.
cos i aint in the mood to smile.

really really tired.
think i'm gonna catch some sleep.

gastrics isnt that bad.
but maybe the medeicine sucks.

good nights peeps.

sam -
you'll be fine.

i miss girrndds.

2005-09-21T16:08:00.000+08:00

ohwellx. another day.
piggy said tomorrow will be a better day.
but i doubt so.

had radian measure stuffs today.
kinda complicated.
took two periods to finish one qn. lol.
and thanks to sam.
the all-time favourite mentos,
became her retard medicine.
but it seems lyk it doesnt work on me.
so yeah. *grins

dui bu qi. hai dao ni bei ta men xiao.
xi wang ni nen de dao xing fu.

waiting for my piano teacher.
since ytd till now.
cos i was too blurr ytd.
i tot she come on tues.
but in actual fact, she comes on wed.
wth. i'm lyk. a total loser.
argh. never minds.

yupp. will be busy with choir stuffs.
but still, i think today was good.
cos i saw joyceee. *grins.
ohman. really miss her lots.
left tmr only. then she finish prelims le.
yay! hahas. i miss you, girl. love ya.

thats abt it.
gotta go. take caire!
i miss " ninety metres". muackks.

2005-09-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

argh. i cant view my blog. wtf.
alryte. this sucks.
what doesnt suck for me today?

anyways. i'm pissed by this fol thingy.
argh. never minds.
will be quite busy with the choir stuffs.
and also studies ba.
exams just arnd the corner.

kinda messed up everywhere.
but who cares?
i miss girlfrnds mann..
ohwellx. outta here.

i'm glad i was wrong abt u.
maybe you are the one i'm looking for.
guardian angel.

2005-09-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

just a short post i guess.
really gotta go off.

quarrelled with sis just now.
she kick me first lors. wth.
never minds.
then i just shouted at my dad.
i was lyk doing my stuffs on the com.
then he kbkb. wtf.
i'm pissed alryte.

sighhs. yeahh.
was feeling unwell again today.
ate medicine.
make me feel so drowsy.
but nevertheless,
i revised my work.
and finished the PBL.
whahahas'' me agn.

alryte. gtg.
miss girlfrnds as usual.
and you. (:

2005-09-18T01:02:00.000+08:00

alryte. today was quite fruitful.
but i'm alil stressed up.
cos of studies i guess.
ohwellx.

talked to joyceee. *grins.
i miss her. loads!
feel kinda glad to hear her voice!
thanks for helping me, dearr..
the jokes will last for ever.
jiaayouus for ur revision. love -

i went to bugis just now.
just to go to nike.
and get a top. whahahas'
got a white top. smth lyk a racer.
but got alot of rainbow lines.
i lyk it. smth different at last.
it was quite ex. abt 50 bucks.
hees. its very ex actually.

yeah.. tmr's mooncake day!
hahas. dunno what u call that in chinese.
argh. who cares?
anyways, i gotta go alrd.
off the lights.
enjoy the darkness!
hope tonight no insomia.
if not, i might need yi hui again.
i love her man! (: u rawkk.

miss girlfrndds.